I keep reading about how block scheduling can help you feel more in control of your day, and I’m attempting it. I try to build margins of time into my day, because I get frustrated when I feel busy and don’t feel like I tackled nearly enough on my to-do list. I make sure I’m not shoving things against each other, keeping space between the blocks.
It’s not helping.
I still wonder where time went. I find myself driving kids places I didn’t expect or spending more time that I expected doing laundry or making dinner or any number of things I know are a waste of time — talking to the cat, scrolling the internet, changing passwords I can’t remember and have to retrieve through a complicated process of two-factor authentication and hope.
Most days I discover I’m missing one of the five habits I’m truly trying to instill this month. These aren’t complicated habits — water drinking, certain workouts, meditation, cleaning tasks, journalling in one form or another. Yet I can’t seem to fit in all five on any given day, which doesn’t make sense because really it’s only a few hours out of the day, max, and I don’t work in the summer. I mean, I work, but I don’t go to my job, so I feel like those few hours should be easy to block into my day. I could understand when the kids were young, and they demanded a lot of my time. Mostly, these days, they entertain themselves (except for my Uber duties). They’ll chat with me if I seek them out, but they’re also happy playing video games, moving furniture around in their rooms, working out, or hanging out with friends.
So far, all three days this month, I’ve basically written about how my life has kind of devolved into missed opportunities and mismanaged time. Maybe by seeing it in writing, I’ll be able to make some small changes to build on each other before the beginning of the school year arises. After all, my days don’t get less messy when the kids are in school.
(Just in case we’re keeping track, which I totally am…Out of five tasks today, I only did three. Out of five habits, I only did three. I might still meditate. We’ll see.)
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